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Tuesday, February 22, 2011

from heart. .

when there's a time u have to choose. . when there's a time u have to decide. . about something dat would change ur life forever. .with a boundary called marriage. .have u ever feel dat ur not ready?have u ever feel dat u can't take the responsibilities. . as a good wife. . a good mother. .a good lover. . a good listener. . when the time came by. .everything. . everything keep running in my head. . is it too soon?is it rite to tied up my self for a man. .who I loved most. .is he's the one for me?who can take care of me. .guide me. .to be a better person. . can he do it?is he able to take the responsibilities?. .

the turning point of my life. .is it the time yet?dear heart,help me. .dear Allah. . show me the way. .give me some guides. .hoping dat it's a rite decision.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

saya dan cinta

pernah satu ketika terasa seperti terlalu sayang sehingga mahu melepaskan. Bukan kerana tiada rasa sayang,bukan kerana tiada rasa cinta.tapi kerana terlalu sayang dan cinta sampai tidak mahu terluka di akhir2. Pernah terasa bila nk lepaskan awal2. . mungkin rasa sakit dan luka itu hanya sementara. . lama kelamaan pasti semua itu hilang. .lama kelamaan pasti jumpa yg terbaik..lebih baik dari aku. .lebih sempurna dari diri aku. .mungkin aku bukan yang terbaik untuk kamu. maukah kamu terima?

hati pedih.hati sakit.bila terkenang semua.kenapa ya?tiba2 semua dtg hari ini?sayang saya minta maaf. .buat kamu sedih. .buat kamu terluka. .buat kamu susah hati. . tapi sayang,saya takut bila jatuh hati dan jatuh cinta lama2 saya akan terluka. .kerana kamu dan saya. . belum tentu lagi jodoh kita. .tp hati dah betol2 cinta. .boleh saya jauhkan diri?boleh saya pergi?boleh?. . boleh saya elakkan diri saya sebelum saya lagi cinta. . sebelum saya terluka?. . tarikh 14 feb. .bukan valentine yg saya ingat. .tp peristiwa 14 feb buat saya takut. .takut untuk jatuh cinta. . hari ini saya sedar,saya dah hanyut dalam cinta kamu. . saya baru tersedar. . saya dah jauh hanyut. . boleh ke saya patah balik?. . saya jauh. . kamu jauh. . saya lagi takut kehilangan. . saya mintak maaf.




 



Saturday, February 5, 2011

Last entry for dis holiday!

hey peeps!!last day and after few hours I'll be going home to Arau!ouh!sgt malas untuk balik sebenarnya...belom lagi balik tp da rindu kan sume kat umah..mana x rindu da kalau 1 mggu balik ni asik kuar jewww.smpai mama cakap umah ni da mcm hotel!oh!kejam..haha..


I'm gonna miss my bed..i'm gonna miss my room..i'm gonna miss my mom..my abah..my lil sis...my bOifie..and i'm gonna mis 'YOU'. . yg sudi baca entry ini..heheh..b4 I blah..nk share yesterday pnye pic..mostly ade kat FB..just few of them la ley upload..and x edit okeh!!





I'm gonna miss my b..huhu... muah!!!. . bye2 bLoggerS...~Lau ade tenet..and tenet x lembap mcm siput then baru I update ag okeh...pray me 4 a safe journey!. . muahh to all of u!

Thursday, February 3, 2011

bengang!penah rasa x?

bengang!mtak maaf kalau saya terlalu emo dgn perkara2 kecil yang berlaku hari ini.
Ya!pasti kamu baca tulisan ini.
Ya!mmg bengang kot!
some says dis blog is for expressing ur feeling.dis time all I wanna say is. .  SAYA MARAH!SAYA BENGANG!
ok2. .for 1 whole day. . it's such a smooth plan. . as I tot!but none of them pon jalan!bullshit!saya menghabiskan masa saya dalam kete 1 hari perjalanan. . saya cramp bontot!saya bengang sampai saya nk nangis. . hell yeah I nangis pon lam kete td sb x tahan bengang!but not for too long cos it will ruin my mascara. . my eye liner and so on. . da lama ok x mekap bagai. . I tot I could snap something sweet cos I got another plan for it. . now,habuk pon x de ok!. .(now IDK what the hell I'm crapping about)

sesungguhnya saya rasa amat bengang.kamo sakit saya risau tapi jgn pk bila kamu sakit buat saya kesian n x jadi marah! I'm such a good actress or what?don't  fall for my act. . saya taw nk bertindak mengikut situasi. . ok!mengarot lg. . 

kalau kau baca,ak nak cakap yg hari ni memang superb gila ar. . mmg gila2 ak happy. . memang best la ape bnda ak plan sume x jadi!. .thanks a lot. .sumpah!aku balik lagi nnt nk kau buat ak mcm ni lagi. .mmg buat aku touching bagai!sampai ak bengang x leh nk mkn padahal kawan ak taw kott ak kuat mkn!huh!thanks bwk mkn tok aku. .ak amik je la sb lapar tp ak x mkn pon.mmg lah pedas belut tu tp ak sakit hati lagi.suka hati la kau nk terasa ke apa sebab nk harap ak cakap dgn kau mcm ni mmg xde lah can sb akini. pon ade hati perot gak.tp mlm ni ak mmg sgt emo!kau jgn harap ak nk kesian la bila ko dok kutuk2 dri sndri.ak x de nak rasa pape.kalau aku ni hari2 bertapa kat rumah ni dekat dgn ko x pe la ko nk wat aky mcm ni pon.ni aku balik 3,4 bln sekali.silap hari bulan ak x balik langsung baru ko taw mcm mana.bhai,aku kalau boleh x nak la marah2 mcm ni sebab ko dgn aku bkn org lain.aku kalau bley x mo la nk gadoh2 sebab hal gni.aku rasa aku x penah ag cakap kasar dgn ko smpai mcm ni kan?lantak la!ak tak mau amik taw.x mau ckp ape2 dah.

p/s: sorry sebab penggunaan bahasa yang agak kasar..sorry kpd org yg di maksudkan kat atas sekiranya baca entry 

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

another piece of crap from me for today!

hey peeps!!. . 1st ly,I just wanna say dat I da melanggar janji!!. . oh!berjanji x mO kuar hari2. .sebab?oF kOz la. . bila tgk buku betimbun2. . da sticky notes which full with test bagai. . wtf?. .esaimen still x jalan. . 5 days at home. .totally relax. . totally in holiday mood. . yesterday,today,tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. . my schedule is pack!. . ouh!terasa macam artis. . haha~


gosh!today I told my friend dat we're going to hang out just for a while cos tomorrow we're going out again. . I called it 'derak bodo'!haha. . for those who are not kelantanesse, 'derak bodo' means jalan2 buang masa,no plan just jalan jea. . hehe. . dat was my own definiton. . as for tomorrow,it won't be 'derak bodo' cos we already got plan. . aren't we?. . haha. . i think so. . tomorrow,of course la another photo shoot (if it's not raining,cos it's raining almost everyday in Kelantan,not like Arau. . damn hot!). . since my photographer is here,then shoot la. . location?Taman Tg anis is running2 in my head. . haha. .wtf??I just terliur la adik I dgn his gurl shoot there. . hehe. .rasa mcm nk jugak la wat. . bring the cute umbrella. . play with the leaves ala2 autumn gitu. .of koz with my boifie. . such a romantic place to shoot but I'm not planning for outdoor shoot there by the time I married. . haha. . just for fun,can laa. .  :)

ok see?I da mengarut bagai. . actually i dun have any idea to write anything. . dunno what to update. . maybe it's because a lil bit exhausted. .a lil?nahh. .damn tired actually!haha. . 4 what reason?just because I bowl for 2 games. . swinging the 15kg's bowling's ball. . then having a large set of quarter pounder with large set of fries,and minute maid orange .with a glass of coke,'kerepek ikan bilis pedas' . .damn hard!my jaws almost tercabot sebab keras!ouh!. . mr boifie ckp. . 'sakit kEng B'. . haha. . now I feel like i wanna land on my lappy just like dis...

ouh! I should change it to 'I is tired eat and play too hard'

and u know what is another secret here?since I got back I didn't take my bath yet!haha. . don't say dat I'm not trying to get off from my bed!I try really hard since an hour ago but still don't have any guts to get up!wtf. . FYI,I'm not a kinda person dat susah sgt mau mandi. .I have my bath 3,4 times a day. . but I didn.t hav ea chance to do that in Arau since for 1 whole day I'm in campus. . x kan la i nk mandi kat kampus plak la kan. . haha. . ok another crap from me. . 
 can u see my condition rite now?it's not dat I'm getting lazy or whut. . but I got tired.   :P


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